Cycle 2!!

Where to start???? Well, the last

week has been a great week. I feel back to 100% and have been able to do all of my normal activities. The kids and Gregg are done with school!! YEAH!!!! Gregg and I were able to go away for the weekend, which was very nice and relaxing. I feel more prepared this time around so I am hoping that the anxiety I had during the last treatment that sent me to crazy town, will be less because I know I will come out of that. And If not, the doctor has given me some medicine to help with that. I got my blood work done today and compared it to when I started the first treatment and they are pretty much the same, so my body was able to bounce back. So with the help of the anxiety medicine I am hoping to have a similar reaction to the treatment. Thank you everyone for your prayers and thoughts. That is the only thing that is getting me through this. Knowing that I have such amazing support helps me be strong and move forward. But most importantly with God on my side all things are possible!

Love you all,
Bridgette

Well that happened fast!

Well, I knew this day was coming, just did not think that it would happen this fast. Over the last few days my hair has been falling out in clumps, so I decided today was the day. Everyone told me that this day would be one of the hardest, but for me it was actually kinda fun. I secretly have always wanted to shave my head, so this kinda gave me an excuse to do it. So a few hours ago, the kids got to cut my hair which they totally enjoyed and then my hubby got the privilege of shaving my head. It was a good experience all around for the whole family. Skyler and Julieanna like it and Shyanne is still not on board with it. But at least she went along with it and I don't think It was as traumatic as I thought it would be for her. I am feeling almost back to 100% so I am hoping to have a great week in preparation for my next treatment. Thanks again for everyone's thoughts and prayers.

Love you all
Bridgette

Update!

Well Cycle 1 is complete, yeah!!!!! I still can't believe that I actually did it. It has taken me awhile to blog again, just because I don't know how to communicate how the last week has been. The first few days were pretty normal, but then after that, I went to crazy town. The best way I can describe it as is I felt like I was trapped inside my head. The only thing I could do was sleep and even that was hard to do because my mind was trying to work but it could not. I still needed to function, but there was just a switch that would not turn on. It was weird and lasted a few days, but I am now on the other side and feeling good. Very tired, but good. I appreciate all of the prayers, they definitely helped me get through the weekend. Now it is time to rest and get my body as back to normal as possible before my next treatment which is scheduled for May 31st. Just wanted to give everyone an update real quick, and I will blog more later, but it is time for bed!

Goodnight
Bridgette

2 down 16 to go!

Day 1- went well. was in my chair from 9:30-2:30, pretty easy day.
Day 2- was there from 8:30-4:00, was a much longer day, and I was ready to leave by then end of the day. Had some bloating and abdominal cramping due to the 3 liters of fluids put into my belly. The nurse came to the realization that my veins suck. It took them 45 mins. just to get my iv. So tomorrow I am going in to get a pickline, praise the lord! That means no more poking!
So now we are to today. I have basically slept almost all day! Have had some cramping, that was finally taken away after I took some tylenol. So a pretty relaxing day today.

Thank you for all ouf your prayers and thoughts, I have definitely felt love and peace through these last few days. My prayer would be that I continue to feel well and that I continually look to God for my strength. Over the weekend will be the true test to what side affects I will be having. Pray that they are minimal and the drugs work.
Love you all
Bridgette

The Plan!!

Well the plan has been set. My treatment starts monday! As I am writing this it kind of feels like I am writing about someone else. Because I feel great right now. My body has healed great from surgery, I am not stressed out, and I feel at peace and content with everything. Which then makes me think is this really going to happen? How can I feel so good and at peace with something that is going to be the worst season of my life. Next week at this time, I could be experiencing things that I never thought I would be. I should be nervous, stressed out, and worrying about what is going to be happening. By the world's definition I should be FREAKING OUT! I realize that Monday morning might be a different story and it is okay to FREAK OUT! But I am continually thinking about God and what he tells me every time I start to freak out.

John 16:3
"I have told you these things so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart, I have overcome the world."

This verse reminds me that my God who created me has overcome this sickness and has endured far worse than chemo, he overcame the world, so with him I can have peace.

Romans 8:18
"I consider that your present sufferings are not worth comparing with the Glory that will be revealed."

2 Corinthians 12:9
"But he said to me, My Grace is sufficent for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness."

These verses gives me hope that through this season God is going to use me and bring me closer to him. And that is exciting to know and gives me something to hold onto and look forward to through this time.

Matthew 21:21-22
"Jesus replied, 'I tell you the truth, if you have faith and do not doubt, not only can you do what was done to the fig tree, but also you can say to this mountain, go and throw yourself into the sea,' and it will be done. If you believe you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer."

Reminds me about the power of prayer and believing that whatever I ask for he will be there for me, and he only gives me what I can handle. So as I begin my Chemo journey on Monday I am holding on to these verses and many more because I know that God is with me, today tomorrow and forever. I don't need to have all the answers or know exactly what lies ahead to know that my prayers are heard. So when you think of me and think of what I may or may not be feeling physically, think about God and pray that he continues to be my source of strength. Pray that even as my body may be weak my spirit will continue to focus on God and what he is teaching me in this time of weakness. All I want is Jesus!!!