God is so good!

Well, I had my last doctors appointment to officially say that I am done with Chemo...yeah! I am so excited and scared at the same time. Excited because I have completed that season in my life. No more wondering how my body is going to react, will I throw up today?, am I going to have enough energy to get through the day? All of those physical side effects are done. Scared because now the hard part begins. Now I have to deal with the fears of did I do enough, will the cancer come back?, If it does, will it be surgically treatable or would I have to possibly do more chemo. All of the questions I am scared about not because of what might happen because I know God is with me, but the fear that Satan will use these fears to bring me down. I am truly at peace with where I am at and all of the decisions I have made thus far, but with that said doubt can come and creep in and distract me and take away my joy. So over the next 5 years of doctors visits, I pray that my focus will remain on God and his desires to use me through this difficult season.

This past week in service it was like God was speaking just to me, I need to keep him first in every area of my life and He will help me and lead me where he wants me to go. I just want to shout from the roof tops of how thankful I am to God for being with me, protecting me, and loving me enough to know how much I can handle. He is truly why I live today and I want everyone to know it!! Let me leave you with these verses!

1 Peter 4:10-12 " Each of you should use whatever gift he has received to serve others, faithfully administering God's grace in its various forms. If anyone speaks, he should do it as one speaking the very words of God. If anyone serves, he should do it with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ. To him be the glory and the power for ever and ever. Amen."

I have been given the gift of going through Chemo, now I want to help others going through the same season, and God is opening up doors and showing me how he wants to use me. What a blessing I have been given. Thank you for everyone who has blessed me and my family through this storm, my prayer is that God will bless you today where you are at because of your faithfulness in doing good works.

Love you all,

Bridgette Eilers

ps...more to come later about the doors God is opening!

Never thought I would be considering this!

Well as most of you know, I am a very picky person when It comes to the foods that I eat. It is not so much the taste, but the texture and smell of foods that I really don't like. Well through my Chemo journey, I have been told that I need to incorporate more water, fruits and veggies into my diet. So I have been thinking long and hard about trying to do that. Until the other day a friend sent me a message and attached a video about how eating better can help keep cancer away. This article is probably exactly what I needed to hear to help me stop thinking about it and actually act on it and try to eat more fruit and veggies. So my reason for blogging about this is cause I need help. How in the world am I going to eat more veggies, if they stink and have funky tasting textures. If you have any amazing reciepes or ways that I can hide veggies in a meal please tell me. I feel I need to go down this road even if it is hard, it needs to be done and I need help.

Where do I go from here?

Hello all, sorry it has been so long since I have last posted. Life has been pretty busy with the last chemo treatment, a well needed relaxing vacation, and the kids starting school. But now I am finally settling back down into a routine, so the blogs will definitely be more often. So with that said, here is how things have been going.
Since my last post, I have gone through one more treatment. Which because of how my body reacted to my 4th treatment, it was really hard to do. But after talking to the doctor, he was able to change the amount of chemo to 85% which has made a huge difference. I was unprepared however for the fact that I needed to get a blood transfusion. I could write a whole blog on just that experience by itself, but lets just say, I hope to never need another one, cause it kind of feels like an alien was put inside of me. I am glad that I had it because I think it is the main reason why I am doing so well with the side effects this time around. Since treatment, Gregg and the kids have started school and I have gone back to semi normal activities, just maybe with a few extra yawns throughout the day.
So now the question is where do I go from here? Well technically I have one more round of chemo scheduled. But I have decided that I am not going to do it. I am completely at peace with my decision to stop treatment. I am ready to move on and see how God is going to use me through my chemo journey. I have met so many people who are going through chemo, been through chemo, or know someone who has. My journey of 5 treatments is a cake walk compared to so many other people's stories and God has laid it on my heart to reach out to those who are going through chemo. The one thing that I have learned through hearing the stories and meeting people who have gone through chemo is that everyone is different. Some people have amazing support systems (like myself) and others are doing everything alone. And trust me, if I went through this alone I would be lost. I have no idea what the next step looks like, but I want to help those who are going through chemo. Almost like you hire someone to redecorate your house. I can help them set up meals, house cleaning, child care, support groups, etc. Even help family members because it can be so overwhelming at times for everyone involved to know where to start. You or your loved one just got diagnosed with cancer and they have to do chemo, now what?? So I tell you all this so that you can be praying for me. My prayer is that God leads me into the right direction. I don't want this to be about me helping others, I want it to be God using me to help others how he wants me to. So for now, my chemo journey is done, but I will continue to seek God for his wisdom and guidance.

Bridgette

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11